Today on 26th April 2008

Today I woke up could not study very much. Studying for Vision exam. Studied only two chapters. It is now night time. Mother went out. I got angry at Anngee and Clarence. Clarence and I talked and I apologized to him. Mother said I was unwell yesterday thus causing me to feel rejected. Today took holy communion with Grandma. Listened to hymns. Almost committed suicide with Stilnox and Alchohol. God saved me. Considering maintenance ECT. Because I keep having down times. Will talk to doc nelson about it when I meet him on the 9th of May.Prayed to the Lord. Got answer by sleeping. Hymns sing hymns. Good therapy. Handphone battery died. Think that I should be getting a new handphone. Want the 77oi Sony ericsson. But have no money. Logging off.