Day 1 - ache

After the session my body ached. My arms often feel achy and weak when I recall the past. 

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Blessings

Dear readers it is such a blessing to be able to blog again. I was ill for the past few months which I have expressed here in this blog about it. Knowing me, I hide in my shell when I am upset. I have been suffering from clinical depression for the past month. To be exact, it is called Bipolar Disorder depressed phase.

Today I went to church and learnt about Jesus' body broken for me. The author of Life. Love and walk with fellow brothers and sisters at their pace - I want to love my christian and non-christian friends alike. I am called to love.

Dear friend, I pray you'll know the love of God in your heart through our Lord Jesus Christ.

I am still in hospital now but am on home leave. I will be fully discharged from the care of the doctors and nurses on Monday. Yoohhoooo!!!

Wednesday's thoughts

It is about 2 hours to my next ECT. I'm planning some of my convocation details. SMS my family members that we got to meet at 830am on FRiday. I can't wait for it. SO happy!! We'll be eating at a SUshi place after the convo.

I made friends with quite a number of people here. Lor, Patricia, Paul, Wenny.. all this people are really nice. I hope i will never forget them.

Graduation Gown

Today, I went to get my graduation gown. It was a nice big store with lots of graduation photos and gowns displayed all around the shop.

I got myself the gown, drape and also the mortar. I will look something like this: This is NOT me. Just what I will look like in the gown that I went to collect just now. I can't wait til the time comes for me to wear it!

I had my second ECT today. I woke up with a fever, and had to take panadol to reduce it. Yesterday I got very angry with Lorraine because I thought she was playing favouritsm I didnt like that at all. So I glared and her and yelled at her. It was excruciating. The time seems to pass very slowly today. I slept a bit because of the fever and headache. Clarence and I spoke on the phone and he updated me as to how his lodging issue is like. He'll be back the Monday after next. I truly am looking forward to it. Today I spoke on the phone with my second sister. She let me speak to Sarah. How precious she is. I can't imagine being so loved. Maybe I shouldn't discredit my mother. But I really think my mom cant take any more of my nonsense. I'll live without her.

Today I was woken up by Nurse CHeryl Goh Ai Sze. I had western breakfast. Yesterday I spoke with my mom . She sounded concerned but I still dont like her tone of voice.

Right now I am waiting for Dr Leong to appear. Will keep you updated.