yesterday i went to church.listened to a sermon about kind david and bathsheba. thought about my own dad and his adultery. felt bad, but bounced back. on depnet, moon flamed me adn i vowed never to put entries on the forum anymore. Called clarence at 8pm. Bought a new phone K770i. the other phone keeps dying. thank god. went to christian books shop and found pastor prince israel dvds. wanted to buy. but sister called me just now to tell me not to. watched ER while chatting with Liz. Helped Liz understand the parable of the 10 virgins. Reading Rick Warren's book on problems. v good book.

moon accused me of being in love with my pdoc. i rebuked her sharply.I ate bread just now. I am still thinking of ECT. I emailed my sister serene who is now in AU. I need to recall tings terefore i am making this blog.

Today on 26th April 2008

Today I woke up could not study very much. Studying for Vision exam. Studied only two chapters. It is now night time. Mother went out. I got angry at Anngee and Clarence. Clarence and I talked and I apologized to him. Mother said I was unwell yesterday thus causing me to feel rejected. Today took holy communion with Grandma. Listened to hymns. Almost committed suicide with Stilnox and Alchohol. God saved me. Considering maintenance ECT. Because I keep having down times. Will talk to doc nelson about it when I meet him on the 9th of May.Prayed to the Lord. Got answer by sleeping. Hymns sing hymns. Good therapy. Handphone battery died. Think that I should be getting a new handphone. Want the 77oi Sony ericsson. But have no money. Logging off.